Uphill (Haiku)

Uphill to nowhere

That is how it feels most days

Dirty, muddy path.

The Politician

Please explain why...
You hate when I love you,
why you hurt me when I want you,
why you make me want to die?

Please explain why...
You don't seem to want my help;
I have the needed expertise.
Why do you have to make up lies?

Please explain why...
You have shut me out wholly
I have given you many years
The kind of help you cannot buy.

Please explain why...
You reject this volunteer?
Due to her disabilities?
rejection makes me want to die.

Please answer...


©2012 Cherie Boeneman

Fall Tree (Haiku)

Fall...my mood today.

Tired tree dropping leaves

Seeking a long rest.

Falling

Down....
Like an elevator in free fall,
but spiraling out of control
nothing to stop my plunge
emotional gravity pulls
until I find the inevitable
Bottom...

Panic

Surrounding noise,
suddenly so far away; 
light-headed, shaking.
Can't breathe,
I want to run,
unable to sit still.
It is actually painful
to remain in one place.
I want to scream.
I do cry and shake 
and cry some more.
I need to escape,
run from the pain,
somewhere, anywhere, 
but there is no escape.
It is always with me.
It is like a choker 
around my throat.
Finally, not being able
to escape or get better
I make the Leap 
of  Concrete Faith.

Icy Hell

Hell on earth arrives

With icy blue eyes stabbing,

Freezing all feeling.

Ghost Walking

Bones that walk,
skeletons that talk;
living who are not,
conscious without thought.

Paradox 
quite unorthodox;
death where life should be,
thought, no sympathy.

Ghostly pale,
yet it can exhale.
No one ever sees;
this spirit can breathe.

Frustration
but ideation.
needing and wanting,
love but not haunting.

It can't be,
ever to be seen,
ever to be held;
all emotions quelled.

. 

Time

Time

Tick Toc

Terrible, Threatening ,Toxin

Tyrant, Terrorizing

Termination

Instant
Immediate, Illusory
Incredible, invalidating, Incinerating
Insinuating, infiltrating
Infliction.

Maximum
Massive, Melting
Monstrous, Maddening, Misery
Murder, Massacre 
Multiplication.

Eternal
Everlasting, Eviscerating
 Evaporating, Exasperating, Enraging
Exhausting, Evacuating, 
Emotion.

Mania Anacrostic

Irritability
Terrible tremors
Severe, serious shaking.

Movement
Aggressive anger
Never needs naps
Increased impulsiveness including imbibing
Always anguished awareness and awake.


©2012 Cherie Boeneman

Heartbeat (Haiku)

Life has a heartbeat

A pulse unique to each

Beating to its time.

The Crush

Pointless preoccupation
Purposeless passion
Fanciful feelings
Fickle fondness.

Aimed astray
Always attendant
Not noticed
Never nice.

Painful perception
Piercing pangs
Forever forbidden
Feelings frozen.

©2012 Cherie Boeneman

Fragmentation

Part of my personality
seem to dissipate,
disappear into thin air
as I watch and wait.

I sense the pieces leaving me,
I feel far away
and voices seem quite distant;
my soul goes astray.

My disintegrating spirit
screams in great distress,
goes unheard by anyone
as it's dispossessed.

How can the several  fragments
be reconnected
What process will be employed,
used and directed?

That scares me more than the illness;
almost has to pain
as much as tearing apart
sections of the brain.

But if agony is required
to get the outcome
of entire cohesion
I'll gladly take some.


©2012 Cherie Boeneman

The Other Guy

If eyes are the window to the soul
his soul is on the way to Hell;
Creepy and distant,
blue but vacant.

He reminds me of those guys who shoot
innocent folks for the pleasure;
Paranoid and strange,
He looks deranged.

He's running for a seat in Congress
but we really cannot afford
to elect him now;
crazy, and how.

Season and Time (Haiku)

Leaves yellow and gold

Falling and spiraling down

Like season and time.


©2012 Cherie Boeneman

The Split

How is it that there is
this split of feelings;
one made of  heavenly love,
the other made in the abyss.

I do not understand
how I can be two
completely different souls,
it is difficult to withstand.

I don't want to hate you
but right there it is;
one minute the feeling's there
and I do not know what to do.

But then there is craving,
a flame burning bright;
a feeling that consumes me
with love and heat that is scathing.

They have a name for it,
say its Bi-Polar.
It's funny, I don't feel ill;
I feel two ways, I do admit.

But then there are the times
when I'm so depressed
I cannot get out of bed
or I can't leave the house' confines.

So I guess it is true:
I am divided.
Sometimes I am on a high,
but at other's I'm a deep blue.

©2012 C. Boeneman

All That's Left (Anacrostic #4)

Ice blue eyes

Hew my soul,
Aid  the foe;
Take what's left
Ends in theft.

Yet there was
Once some care
Ugly mood sighs.

©2012 Cherie Boeneman

Beware Politicians!

I have decided to follow God
not the elected officials
I want to stay away from evil
and from very blatant fraud.

I want to restore my sanity
it fled when I got too involved
Trying to get it back takes much work
fleeing inhumanity.

They can literally drive you mad.
They will use you and will abuse you
then toss you like yesterday's garbage.
It can hurt and make you sad..

I'll not volunteer for them again.
Politicians are for themselves
People need to know this when they vote
and not let them pull you in.

©2012 Cherie Boeneman